Sunday, June 12, 2005

Passion Vs Payment

Well it's late night again, and while I am waiting for the live telecast of the Canadian F1 in about an hour 30 minutes time, I figured that I might as well write a little.

Some I wonder to myself, whether what I am pushing for is going to go anywhere. Here I am refering the future of competitive cycling in Singapore. But this is a chicken and egg situation,cuz, if you don't try you won't know, but if you tried and failed, are you up to the challange to face the failure? Sometime it's hard isn't it? But life was never ment to be smooth sailing in the first palce. Thus people, wish me all the well wishes you can and hope i will succeed.

Hungry.... time to find food! Adios...

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Three in the morning...

It's now three in the morning and I am still up... rare. Considering the fact I am one of those people who needs 8 hours of sleep to be satisfied. Well, I do stay up and used to stay out late on occasions, but when I am at home, this is rare. It either means there's something really interesting on the TV, like F1 live telecast, I am suffering from insomnia (correct spelling, people?), or I have something that I really need to complete, by dawn. Today, it's the latter.

I am in the midst of preparing for my baby, event, that is the National Road Championship, to be held on the 26th of June, 2005. Most of friends who are not in the cycling arena always ask me why am I always so involved in the sport. Some people in the arena are questioning what my 'ulterior' motive is. Well, I guess when you are soo madly in love with a sport, it is sometime very difficult to explain the word 'why'.

I've been sleeping late for a while now, but for other reasons as well. It's been six months and eight days today when we end our four years, four months, and one day's relationship. It's been a magic carpet ride since, and I am not talking about being smooth sailing, but rather, that airie feeling that I have not landed back on reality land. It's was hard, for both sides I guess and we've been calling each other still since that day. I still let her throw tentrum at me, she still calls me at five in the morning, just like she used to.

I guess I wouldn't really go into detail about what happened and why we parted, as I am a rather private person when it comes to things closer to the heart. But I guess I would have to admit that I do miss her, even though it can be just once in a while. You just don't forget a four year long relationship just like that. I dunno if we will be together again, and I dunno if I want to be, or should I say if I am prepared to be. it's a strange funky world between men and women, innit?

Well, guess I would not talk about bikes today. Just not the right mood to do so. Guess I am finally feeling the tiredness, eye lids getting heavy now... maybe I can have a good sleep? Well won't till I wake up later today, innit.

good night people, or should I say, good morning? Bourna Notte, amicos...